Trying to Integrate
This work became about giving those four women form — through film, performance, and visual storytelling. They each got their own body, look, and emotional arc. I started therapy and group therapy alongside this — trying, really trying, to pull the threads together.
There was a chest of drawers in my room that broke the moment I got it. I could use the top and bottom drawers, but the middle three were jammed together, stuck in place. I still have it, five years on. That broken furniture became a kind of metaphor — most things in my flat half-worked or didn’t work at all. I kept it all, right up until I couldn’t, and then I’d throw everything out. It was always all or nothing.
I’d deep-clean my flat, then destroy it or neglect it completely. The flat became a mirror for how I saw and treated myself.
